the beginning...

It's the start of challenging days. So much to learn, so much to do, so much to prove. There's still lots of room for improvement. I got what I wanted. Now I want more. But I must work first. I must prove myself worthy. I've proven myself before but I have to prove myself worthy once more. It's scary, exciting and challenging all at the same time. I can't wait for everything to unfold.

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I had a fight with my bestfriend. Again. I just don't get him. I felt like I was being taken for granted. I was hurt. The way he told me that he was attending to me first made it look like a consolation prize. I won't settle for a consolation prize. I haven't even told him about my good news. I didn't have the chance. I wanted to go out because I fear that it would take me some time before I can accomodate anything else aside from family and work. I wasn't able to tell him why.