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I applied for a higher position dito sa PS. Well actually, I was asked to apply for it. Short listed daw ako sa mga possible candidates for the position. It was one level higher than my current one and I wanted a change of pace so I applied for it. Besides, me chance na ako e. Why would I turn that down di ba? One of the question that lingered on everybody's mind was my technical skills. Yes, I am in IT but I am in a Supervisorial position in IT. So, mas managerial ako kesa technical. It was asked several times during the interview. And I kept on giving them the same answer, di mahirap matuto. I've proven that to myself already and I know I am up to it. Natapos na ang interview, wala pa ding resulta. Andami kong kinonsider bago ko pinasa yung application ko.

1. Am I ready for the stress that I'll be subjected to? Yes, as I said, I need a change in pace. I need a challenge and I felt that I was ready for it. Besides, it's my chance to be technical this time. Para sa susunod, managerial and technical e keri ko na.

2. Am I ready for horrendous and erratic work hours? Yes, nag-usap na kami ni John. We both understand that it comes with the job if I do get accepted.

Yan yung mga primary concern ko. Lahat ng takot ko dun sa job e nilunok at nilabanan ko. I think I did fairly well on my interview, except maybe dun sa isang director. Kasi naman, pag upo ko pa lang e technical na agad ang tanong. In-depth technical pa nung application. Mejo nangamote ako. Bad trip. Come to think of it, alam na niya yung strengths ko e. Kaya nga ako kinonsider for the position e. He needed to gauge how weak my weaknesses were. I have a feeling that he found it to be my Kryptonite. Haay... Nade-depress lang ako pag naiisip ko. Ang saklap pa lang mag-apply sa position na pinaghandaan mo at wala kang mapang-hawakang pag-asa. I wonder sometimes if it's my ego that is more hurt. I only applied thrice for a higher position in this company. First was for a supervisorial position in operations. Trial lang yun e. So wala lang sakin nung di ko nakuha. Second was for the Helpdesk Analyst position. We all know how that went. And third was this one. Everything else was given to me on a silver plate. Andun na yung position. Ako na lang ang iniintay. So I really feel that my ego would take a major beating if I don't get this one. But then again, iniisip ko na OK na din yun. Sabi ko naman ke God, pag di sakin, alam kong di niya ibibigay. And besides, I'm having second thoughts about the position. Masaya ako kung asan ako ngayon. Too comfy na nga e. And iba talaga yung target kong position. If I don't get this one. I have to start working hard for my desired position. Yun, pag di ako natanggap dun, mas masakit.